What is an autism assessment like for adults?
What is an autism assessment like for adults?
In her late 20s, Mayanne Soret decided it was time to put her suspicions to rest and phoned her family doctor for an autism test. But during the year-long autism assessment for adults, Mayanne realised the autism evaluation framed autistic people as naïve and unlikeable. Here she shares the special things that come from being autistic, and how we might test differently as a result.
I was diagnosed as autistic in my late 20s. It wasn’t a surprise – I’d had my suspicions since early adolescence. What did come as a shock was how dehumanised I felt by the diagnostic process.
When I first called my family doctor for a referral, I felt pragmatic and optimistic. This was a means to better understand and take care of myself. Yet every step of the way, I found the medical field framed my autism as a problem to be fixed.
There was little space for me to talk positively about my autistic traits, like how joyful and fulfilled my highly focused interests in music, photography and sewing make me, or how my accepting nature has led me to build long-lasting friendships.
Instead, I had to assess myself through the eyes of others: how different I am, how difficult I am to interact with, how uncomfortable I make neurotypical people feel.
This autism assessment for adults hurt me
I went through the UK's National Health Service for my autism diagnosis, which uses a number of tools to identify autism spectrum disorder (ASD). One of these is the Autism-Spectrum Quotient (AQ-10). This was the first test I had to complete.
The AQ-10 is used by family doctors to assess whether a patient should be referred for a diagnosis. You are asked to respond to ten statements on a scale from “definitely agree” to “definitely disagree”. Each answer is assigned a score, and autism is suspected if your total score passes over a certain threshold.
I sat down to add my answers to sentences like: “People often tell me that I keep going on and on about the same thing.” And: “I know how to tell if someone listening to me is getting bored.” I was confused — what strange statements to rate myself on.
Nonetheless, I sent my questionnaire back, and I was referred for a formal diagnosis.
Though I didn’t need to take the RAADS-R, I thought it might be helpful to look over it. Question 17 read: “Others consider me odd or different.” And question 22: “I have to ‘act normal’ to please other people and make them like me.”
This test felt like it was intentionally trying to hurt me.
Statements in both the AQ-10 and RAADS-R portray autistic people as naïve and unlikable. Of course I have struggled to understand social rules in the past, and this has caused me hurt and confusion. But being autistic has also allowed me to connect with others and forge strong bonds. My honest and non-judgmental character has helped me foster close friendships where everyone feels seen and loved for who they are.
Yet seeing those remarks formalised in medical literature gave weight to my deepest fear: that I am a problem for others to deal with.
I was left with shaky self-esteem as I prepared for a crucial next stage: the face-to-face screening.
The exhausting interview process of an autism assessment
I had to wait months for my first screening appointment for my autism assessment, where I was told a clinician would conduct four sets of one-hour interviews, going over my personal history, behaviours and challenges.
This format is called the Diagnostic Interviews for Social Communication Disorders (or DISCO). It’s a common diagnostic tool for the screening of Autism Spectrum Disorder in adults in the UK.
Since autism affects my communication, I knew it could be a challenge to accurately express my internal reality to the clinician.
I remembered how, as a child, I had often shared with adults all the ways I felt different. But despite my best efforts, no one seemed to understand just how much more different I felt from my peers.
And although my clinician was kind, the process was painful.
"Previously forgotten memories were forced to the surface, and my mind was filled with recollections of abandonment and misunderstanding."
Week after week, I was asked about every aspect of my life I had ever struggled with: how difficult it was for me to make friends, to concentrate in school, to be in busy spaces; how I could become so consumed with my interests that I would forget to eat, wash or sleep.
Previously forgotten memories were forced to the surface, and my mind was filled with recollections of abandonment and misunderstanding.
Rather than focusing on the loneliness and upset of my high-school years, we could have explored how my obsessions with photography and music impacted my life back then. How I spent hours planning photoshoots; how music led me to a group of friends I still have today; how this ultimately gave me the confidence to move abroad by myself.
Trauma did not have to be the only symptom of my autism.
"Trauma did not have to be the only symptom of my autism."
Getting some me-centred advice
By the end of the four sessions, I was exhausted, but I still had one more test to go: the Autism Diagnostic Observation Schedule (ADOS). There, the clinician asked me to retell a story from flashcards and invent scenarios based on picture books and miscellaneous items.
At the end of the session, amused but a bit confused by what I had to do, I asked the clinician what the purpose of these exercises was. They told me the exam was designed to observe how people process, recall and manipulate new information.
For the first time in my assessment, I was able to discuss how my autism manifests, and how I might make accommodations in my daily life to improve my wellbeing. We discussed the importance of stimming, and how to identify my triggers to avoid sensory overload.
I only got to talk about this because I asked the right questions. I wish more of the diagnosis had involved me like this, and included opportunities to chat informally about my symptoms and personal history.
"Neither I nor my autism are a problem. There are many ways to be human, and mine is one of them."
A call for better autism assessments for adults
It was a relief to finally receive my autism diagnosis. Not only because my suspicions had been correct all along, but also because this process was finally over.
From referral to result, my diagnosis took over a year: this is the average waiting time for my age group on the NHS. While waiting times for private assessments are much shorter, services often want hundreds for an assessment and hundreds more for medication, mandatory follow-up appointments and other additional costs.
Access to autism diagnosis needs to improve, but so do the procedures themselves. Elsewhere the tests have been critiqued for their male bias and Western-centric perspectives.
Both the AQ and DISCO were developed in the UK – the former at the University of Cambridge and the latter at the Lorna Wing Centre for Autism – and the ADOS was created in the United States, yet they are used worldwide. Recent research suggests these may be factors in autism remaining under-diagnosed in certain cultures and communities.
I do not regret going through the autism assessment for my diagnosis. I gained invaluable knowledge about myself and others. But I know better assessment practices are needed.
Autism is an integral part of who I am and manifests in many positive ways, but I was not able to showcase that. Instead, the assessment reinforced society’s ableist perceptions of autistic people.
Neither I nor my autism are a problem. There are many ways to be human, and mine is one of them.