This was not the threesome with my husband I imagined

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Threesome stories: this was not the threesome with my husband I imagined

I never planned on having a threesome with my husband when I got married. But when he brought leukemia into the marriage, I had no choice.

The first year of marriage brings with it many revelations. There’s the moment when you look at the love of your life and wonder how come you hadn’t realised until now that they were this annoying.


When you discover they don’t know what ‘clean’ means. And that, surprisingly, there are no limits to just how petty and passive-aggressive you can be when the moment truly calls for it. Now, throw cancer into the mix, and welcome to our life.


Brendan’s Leukemia added a little extra baggage to our newly-wed life for us. Think of it as the elephant in the room, and Brendan is chained to it. Leukemia was not who I would have wanted for a threesome with my husband.


You can’t not talk about it. It’s there knocking over stuff, forcing you to clumsily maneuver around the mess it makes. We found all kinds of tools to learn how to communicate as a couple, like Love Languages or ‘I’ and ‘feeling’ statements (‘I feel like you’re annoying, for instance).


But there weren’t many resources on how to talk about cancer and leukemia in marriage – so we left our humanitarian jobs and decided to create some. We also had to tackle the whole husband and wife threesome conversation. More on that soon.

Threesome with my husband playing the Cancer Card. Cartoon illustration from Glossary of Awkward, the book. Person

According to WHO, nearly every family in the world has been touched by cancer. As we reflected on our own communication challenges around ‘the Big C’, we wondered how many others were going through the same thing, and what could we do about it?


We wrote the Glossary of Awkward to help people answer the question, ‘How can I be a better partner or friend to someone living with cancer? And, how can I do it authentically?’.


The book is a collection of quirky funny cancer cartoons that illustrate the uncomfortable moments that come up when you live with cancer. For both of us, saying ‘I have cancer' or ‘my husband has cancer,’ was typically met with really awkward responses that were sometimes hurtful. The funny cancer cartoons in the book are inspired by these real-life conversations.


For example, after Brendan told a friend he had cancer, the friend asked, ‘How long do you have?’


My former boss once told me to tell Brendan that he shouldn’t tweet so much (as if to imply that it made people doubt he was really sick).


One friend even said his cancer was due to Brendan holding onto ‘bad energy.’


There is a whole range of emotions that make it uncomfortable to talk about your loved one’s diagnosis. 


For one, we’re afraid that cancer can happen to us – thinking about their mortality makes us think about our own.


As a result, we end up saying things resembling blame or shame to distancing ourselves from a loved one’s cancer. It’s like a protective barrier. 


We felt defining and naming these emotions was important because it’s harder to talk about or resolve a feeling you can’t describe.


CML became that thrid wheel in our threesome sex stories!

Cartoon from Glossary of Awkward the book. A woman is being told by someone not seen in photo,
Caption: Theatre of the Sick | noun used to describe a combination of techniques one may employ to perform cancer so that those around them can perform empathy.  Credit:©Uncomfortable Revolution  ​​
Cartoon from Glossary of Awkward, the book. A man is being told
Cartoon from Glossary of Awkward the book. A woman tells an angry looking man,
Caption: logicus randomus | noun an ancient, self-healing ritual of using maxims and aphorisms to make sense of painful, but random, events.Credit:©Uncomfortable Revolution  We wanted this book to feel honest and real. So many of the messages directed toward people living with cancer create this pressure to be a fearless, positive warrior all the time. But we must acknowledge other emotions that need to be processed, like sadness, anger, or fear.​​

Humour, for us, was a great way to do that. Comedy allows us to confront painful truths with a laugh. After all, tragedy plus time equals comedy.


Brendan will play the ‘cancer card’ at home from time to time. If we’re both trying to avoid doing a particular chore, he’ll quip, ‘But I have cancer!’


It’s impossible to beat that.


But I laugh and let him get away with it because if there is one silver lining, we’ll take it.


For us, this laughter feels empowering. We felt like humor took away some of the elephant’s scariness because we were able to look directly at it and confront all of the emotional baggage it came with.


While cancer can bring people together, it can also tear them apart. People living with cancer often lose friends who might distance themselves when they don’t know what to say or how to be there. 


They also lose romantic partners and face significantly higher divorce rates (as if cancer weren’t a big, steaming mess all on its own).

Cartoon from Glossary of Awkward the book. A woman is holding on to a big green blob of slime with a bewildered look. Someone not seen says to her,
Credit: ©U​​Revolution  When someone is facing a life-threatening illness, they need a network of strong, supportive relationships.

According to Danish comedian Victor Borge, ‘laughter is the shortest distance between two people.


We wrote Glossary of Awkward to bring people closer together during a difficult time. To take away cancer’s power to make us feel so uncomfortable, so we can all get better at being there for the people we love.

Corinne Gray and Brendan McDonald are the authors of Glossary of Awkward. Illustrations by Simon Kneebone.

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Corinne Gray

Corinne Gray is a Fulbright Scholar and MIT Sloan Fellow who loves to find new ways to solve complex social challenges. As a social entrepreneur, she is most passionate about inclusion. Corinne identifies as neurodivergent and experiences depression.

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In a relationship, when your husband has cancer, it's the elephant in the room. It like an unwelcome threesome with my husband. You can't not talk about it. | ©aleutie / Adobe Stock

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