Rosacea stories: the one with all the questions

Rosacea stories: the one with all the questions

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Rosacea stories: the one with all the questions

Miriam Swallow Adler shares one of her most annoying rosacea stories- the one where a guy keeps asking her, 'what's wrong with your face?' This question hurts more than the itchy dryness and the scaling and the visibly broken blood vessels.

It’s been a pretty dull couple of hours, sat outside my college with flyers and leaflets and course catalogs. I had volunteered for the open day because I loved giving the tours and chatting with the visitors.

I had not volunteered to sit in an uncomfortable chair in the sun for three hours, handing out papers with an obnoxious twat. It had to be done, I guess. His chatter was becoming increasingly repulsive, but suddenly, he hit a new low—

‘What’s wrong with your face?’

‘I’m sorry, what? That’s just my face.’

‘But, your hands.’

‘What about my hands?’

‘Your hands are white. Your face, red. What’s wrong with your face?’

‘How do you know there isn’t something wrong with my hands?’

He went quiet for a bit.

‘That’s just my face. That’s what it looks like.’

I was sort of annoyed about being caught off guard, being asked about my rosacea. Another few minutes of awkward silence. He then piped up: ‘Well now I feel bad. I feel bad about saying that, then.’

‘Good, that’s an appropriate way to feel right now. I’ll just let you sit with that for a bit. You feel bad. I’m going to the loo.’ I switched shifts and went to talk to a Maths applicant. He was adorable.

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It was so infuriating. I hate my rosacea most of the time. I feel meh about my face on the best of days, and am well aware that my skin sans makeup is a shocking crimson color. Yes, thank you, I can use a mirror.

Thank you for reminding me that I have a soviet-red revolution happening on my actual face. Do you not think that I know? It’s none of your business what’s going on, especially when you’re a stranger.

Another one of my rosacea stories- my nickname as a kid was ‘Tomato face.’

Once, in a sports class, my teacher asked me if I could stop for a bit because he didn’t want me to collapse in his classroom. I was fine. I was just fat, and red-faced and kind of winded. Seconds in the sun turn me red, I blush easily, and sometimes I have flare-ups with tiny smatterings of spots; a lumpy, bumpy, red face.

I hate my rosacea. I get embarrassed about it. I don’t like to go on dates without foundation but generally the people I’m seeing love it, they think it’s cute. Like I’m blushing. All the time. It must make them think that I think they’re really hot.

Part of it is just having what my mum would call a ‘rosy complexion,’ yep — the one I call ‘overcooked lobster.’ No matter what you call it, rosacea is a condition that affects loads of people and has no clear treatment.

It’s okay, and I’m okay, I hate my rosacea sometimes. It’s hard to explain why it affects me so much, but on bad-skin days my confidence tends to bottom out. I’m on medication now, and it’s definitely helping.

Still, on the worst days I can count dozens of people who ask me if I’m okay, if it hurts, and ‘what’s wrong with your face?’

Miriam Swallow Adler shares one her most wry rosacea stories- the one where a guy keeps asking her, 'what's wrong with your face?' Click To Tweet

How long does rosacea last?

Sometimes, your concern — whether real or fake — hurts more than the redness, the dryness, the soreness, the tiny clear pustules, and the itchiness — god, the itchiness. It is your concern that mostly makes me hate my rosacea.

I know that people have the best of intentions when they ask me 'what's wrong with your face,' or 'how long does rosacea last for?', but when I’m going through a flare-up I struggle to leave the house, and despite my traffic-light-like appearance; I don’t want any extra attention. I’m lucky in that most of the time my skin issues aren’t severe, and don’t stop me from living a ‘normal’ life.

Most of the time, I can cover up with makeup, and usually, the pain isn’t bad. I can’t imagine what it must be like for people who have issues that are far more visible, and far more ‘out of the ordinary.’

Look, I know you mean well, but sometimes, asking if I’m okay only makes it worse.

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Miriam Swallow Adler

Miriam Swallow Adler is a tired young person who writes, sings, and illustrates things while moonlighting as an Oxford University student.


It’s okay, and I’m okay, I just hate my face sometimes. It’s hard to explain why it affects me so much, but on bad-skin days my confidence tends to bottom out.